Inner Knowledge

She did not look at Penny as she said the words. Joan knew Penny would think her insane for asking such a question, but she had to know. The time had disappeared and she wanted to know where it went. One moment she was opening an email from Rainey and the next she was on her dining room floor, listening to the two women in her life that most agitated her. How had that happened?

But there was a part of her that knew the answers to these questions. It was the part that was not letting her focus on Rog or the girl that had been found with him. This part of her demanded her attention and until she gave it the needed thought moments, nothing more would occupy her mind.

She had a feeling that something more had happened than just blacking out. It was in Penny's eyes. Penny had changed towards her. Something had happened. Something big. And Penny had not laughed when Joan asked her about the channeling idea. In fact Penny had remained very quiet for several moments.

Then she had said, "I don't know. I don't know anything about channeling. Maybe. Why do you think so?"

Joan had then told her about Rainey and Zuleese. What she did not tell Penny is that she herself had wanted to be the one who channeled Zuleese and that she had coveted Rainey's ability to do so. Why would a benevolent soul speak through the body of such a horrid person as Rainey? Why was Rainey deserving of this special blessing and not she?

But now, maybe things had changed. Maybe Zuleese had left Rainey as a host. Maybe this ancient wise one was now using her instead. A warm emotion filled her inside and suddenly she felt as though the joy would bubble out like euphoric brainwaves. And for a moment she just basked in the potential.

But Penny had stopped the car and was looking at her in an odd way.

"I don't know. But let's try to find out," Penny said, getting out of the car.

Joan looked around at the unfamiliar setting and realized this must be where Penny lived. They were in the city now.